Daily prayer for OUR HUSBANDS

I'm praying for husbands today. God endow our husbands with wisdom, knowledge and understanding of your Word. Mend their broken hearts, where there is confusion bring clarity, if there be any conflict God bring peace. Convict, convert, and sanctify their hearts! Teach them to Love us as you have commanded in your Word. Don't let them be to prideful to seek guidance and direction from you. Lord bless, touch and anoint our husbands from the crown of their heads to the soul of their feet in Jesus name.

Daily Prayer for DECISION MAKING

Today I am praying for husbands and wives that are in the valley of decision. Whether you are deciding to stay or end your marriage, or deciding on a home, job, or a place to relocate, perhaps you're deciding on a new church home or whether or not it's time to start a family. I'm praying for you that whatever you decide you first acknowledge God and discover what His will is for your life! I pray that you are lead, guided and directed by the Holy Spirit before you take one step. I rebuke satan and cancel the attack of the enemy on your life and your marriage, in the name of Jesus! Count it done!

Daily Prayer for CLOSENESS

My prayer today is that husbands draw closer to wives and wives draw closer to husbands and together marriages draw closer to God! God let us be so close that no air can come between us! Let us be so close that satan has no room to put any wedges between us! Do not let us be deceived by friends of the opposite sex, single friends, family, loved ones, work, children, money, secrets or other priorities that purposely or unintentionally try to come between us! Bind us together in your Love and strengthen us as never before as you said in your Word in Ephesians 4:12 And if one prevail against him, two shall withstand him; and a threefold cord is not quickly broken. In Jesus name, Amen! 

A Christmas Prayer

The holidays are a wonderful time that is specifically set aside to celebrate the birth of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Many of us are spending time with our families, eating, talking, laughing, shopping and worshiping together. The Christmas season is supposed to be a time of love, joy and peace. But I cannot help but to think about the multitude of people that are without. So many marriages and relationships ending, homes broken, children split between parents, family deaths, sick loved ones, homeless and impoverished families that don't have the luxury of enjoying the holidays the way that we do. The murders of Sandy Hook are still fresh in my heart and mind. It keeps me forever grateful and full of humility because I certainly realize that I could be out on the street with no food, no home and no one to care for me. I could be grieving the loss of my child or loved one. I just want to offer this prayer for those who may feel forsaken in some way.

Most kind gracious God, my Heavenly Father I come on behalf of your children; families, marriages and individuals. So many are hurting, abused, bereaved, sick, broken hearted, hungry, thirsty, homeless, depressed, confused, lonely, addicted, not in their right mind, and out of fellowship with you. God I ask that you comfort, heal, restore, revive, bring together, break addictions, feed, clothe, shelter and wrap your loving arms around each and every one of them right now in the name of Jesus. Please bing peace where there is confusion and chaos. Where there is hate replace it with your Love, Where there is depression God, elevate minds. Where there is sadness oh God, restore your joy! Mend broken hearts God, dispatch your angels to bring food, clothes, shelter and water to those in need. Most of all Lord turn stoney hearts to hearts of flesh and let the true reason of the season resonate in the hearts and minds of those that have broken fellowship with you. Those that are confused and don't understand what's going on in their lives bring revelation and calm. God I thank you for all that you have done and for all that you are doing! Thank you for placing your son Jesus in the womb of the Virgin Mary just so that a little nothing like me could have a chance. You are an awesome and mighty God, and I bless your name for truly you are worthy of all the praise, glory and honor! I know that your able to touch, heal, deliver and restore and I count it all done in the mighty name of Jesus. I rebuke every act of the enemy and cast him back into the pit of hell never to return! I speak it and believe it in the power and authority of Jesus Christ!

It is my hope that each person reading this is blessed, highly favored and walking in the authority of The Lord. In case you are hurting, struggling or going through, I hope this prayer reaches you and you are blessed, encouraged, lifted and your faith is restored. GOD LOVES YOU MORE THAN YOU' LL EVER KNOW! And so do I!

Peace, Love, and many blessings to each of you! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!

A Guide for the Single and the Divorced- My Story!

After 15 years of marriage I found myself divorced, and the last thing I wanted was to be married again. Married for the first time at age 18, I was 33 when I got divorced, and I needed time (I felt) to figure out who I was. After all that I had been through I wanted time to heal, learn to Love myself and time to focus on my children. However there are two scriptures that stand out in my mind: (Isaiah 55:8 KJV) For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. And (Jeremiah 29:11 NIV) For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. If those scriptures are any indication you'll know that God had a completely different plan for me than the one I had for myself!

Although separated for quite sometime I was only officially divorced for one month before being re-introduced to the man God had for me. In our very first conversation we both established that we only wanted friendship and whenever I visited Tennessee we could hang out. As you might have guessed already, things very quickly changed from friendship to relationship! From October to January of the following year we became very close and were dating exclusively. I was terrified on the inside because I did not want to be married again! And marrying him meant moving to another state, leaving my job and not having full assurance that my sons were going to want to go with me. My husband had a 4 year old daughter and the whole concept of being a step mom, being remarried and moving away from all of my friends and family was much too overwhelming. But I loved him and I didn't want to be with out him either!

After giving things ALOT of thought, and talking to my parents and talking to my children I was still torn, there was only one thing left to do; FAST AND PRAY! Now when my dad and mom were dating and my dad wanted to know if my mom was his wife or not he asked God to show him through sickness and sickness only, so I decided to do the same!  I was sitting on my bed one day in early January and I said ok God here is what I'm going to do. I'm going to fast and pray for 21 days (to show my sincerity) and I want you to show me IN SICKNESS ONLY if this is my husband or not.

21 days passed, then 30, then somewhere around 45 days I was going up the stairs to my apartment and by the time I reached the top of the stairs I couldn't breath, I experienced numbness in my left hand, and pain in my chest and left arm. After the doctors ran several tests they discovered that I had a large fluid filled cyst surrounding my heart. If you have ever seen or drank a liter bottle of water that's how much fluid filled my chest. The doctor told me they had never seen anything like it before. All could I think was here is the answer to my prayer!

You see marriage is not a joke! It isn't something that should be taken lightly. And I couldn't afford to waste any more time outside of God's will for my life. Now certainly everyone does not have to go through the extreme measures that I went through, I had to have a rather painful and intricate surgery, it took me well over 30 days to recover and I have scars on my body that will never go away. But regardless to the consequences I HAD TO BE ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN THAT I WAS IN LINE WITH GOD's PLANS FOR MY LIFE!

If you are divorced or if you are single desiring to be married the importance of seeking God first is one that cannot be stressed enough. Don't waste your time, don't waste your life, don't cause your self unnecessary hurt, heartache, drama and pain trying to play matchmaker on your own. I knew my husband for 6 years before we ever dated. The first time we met he was married and so was I, and we never really had much of a conversation outside of me buying a DVD from him to teach my son how to play piano. Never in my wildest dreams did I think we would be married! But God new the plan that he had for my life a plan to prosper me and not to harm me, a plan to give me hope and a future!

The past is gone, place your present and your future in God's hands. Let Him orchestrate your life! He can do it so much better than we can because He really does know what is best for us! He knows more about what we need than we do, because He knows us better than we know ourselves and He knows what and who we need in our life to help us do what He has called us to do. His thoughts really are not your thoughts, neither are His ways your ways!

Love you always,

Charity

Controlling Your Emotions

In the very beginning of time when Adam and Eve were in the garden, satan went to Eve with his trickery and not to Adam because he knew that he could play on Eve's emotions. Centuries have passed and we (WOMEN) are still fighting the emotional battle! Satan plays on our emotions and catches us up in so many ungodly situations because we don't recognize his tactics. I don't think that I have ever struggled with anything more than I have struggled with this.

Growing up I never really learned to separate emotion from reality. If I was angry, everyone knew it, if I was happy, sad, confused, depressed or indifferent that was the reality of my situation. It did not matter if the reality was that my emotions were out of control and I was allowing my decisions and judgement to be lead by my emotions rather than being lead by the truth. If I looked in the mirror today and thought I look amazing I would be happy and I would have an amazing day, but if I look in the mirror tomorrow and I look ugly then I would be sad and depressed and my entire day would be a wreck, despite the truth that EVERYTHING God created is beautiful! One day my husband can crack a joke on me and we both will laugh but the next day I may be having a "bad day" and that same joke will make me mad and we will end up arguing over nothing. When the truth is I'm being extra sensitive and he was only playing. There was a time in my life when just because I was happy and felt I deserved it I would spend half of my pay check in the mall without regard to the needs of my household, then when the bills came I would cry and fall into a depressed state because I was "so tired of being broke". But the reality was I wasn't broke, I just mismanaged my money and rather than paying my bills I spent it at the mall.

The last few years have been especially challenging for me. I have endured several major life changing events. Divorce, heart surgery, new marriage, moving to a new state, leaving my children and my job behind, starting early menopause, and having cervical cancer. Talk about an emotional roller coaster!! Every single one of these situations were very real! And the emotions that I experienced with each of these situations were real also! Satan did everything he could possibly do to show me the negatives in every single one of these situations and early menopause and hormone therapy did not help the situation one bit! Of course I could have taken some natural, holistic approach (I AM NOT AT ALL AGAINST THAT) but that wasn't the answer for me. It was deeper than that. Satan plays on our emotions because we don't control them with the WORD OF GOD!

God made us emotional creatures, however he did not intend for us to be lead by our emotions. We must still yield to the Word!! Yes our monthly cycle makes it difficult, menopause makes it difficult, pre-menopause makes it difficult, birth control pills makes it difficult, hormone therapy makes it difficult but the bible says "I can do ALL things through Christ which strengthens me". God will not require us to do anything that He wont empower us to do! Marriages are being destroyed and husbands are being ran off because wives cannot control their emotions. One day up, the next day down, you wake up angry for no reason, depressed and don't know why. Satan is sitting back laughing at us, and our husbands are trying to stay far away because they don't know what to expect.

We cannot afford to be on an emotional roller coaster every day! On those days when your husband isn't being all that you hoped he would be and your emotions tell you to throw in the towel, rather than running into the arms of another man or running to the divorce court remind your emotions of the vow you made before God. Then take a look in the mirror, you probably aren't being all that he expected either! If you are depressed about the trials that you are facing, the reality is that trials come to strengthen your faith and draw you closer to God. Put an end to your pity party and cast your cares  upon our heavenly Father! If you are depressed because of something you have done and guilt is eating away at you, remember there is NO condemnation in God! Forgive yourself, because He has already forgiven you. Let it go and smile again! If you aren't feeling attractive for whatever reason, the truth is EVERYTHING God created is beautiful regardless to the worlds standard or what you see in the mirror! If anger, resentment, bitterness, or hatred are eating away at you get to the source of it! Get rid of it and live, laugh and love again! Because the Word says in Ecclesiastes 7:9 Be not hasty in the spirit to be angry: for anger resteth in the bosom of fools. So instead of medicating your emotions feed them the Word! Be lead by the truth! Ask God for eternal joy! That kind of joy exceeds your conditions. Eternal joy says regardless to what is going on around me I still have JOY! Control your emotions don't let your emotions control YOU! It takes patience with yourself, diligence, consistency, and PRAYER, PRAYER, PRAYER!

Losing yourself in the pain

After getting a divorce from my children's father to whom I was married for 15 years, I found myself heart broken, depressed and shattered. The people that I thought would be there for me weren't, church family treated me like an outsider, my children's father was unsupportive and we were at odds. Spiritually I was dying, and financially I was sinking. My truck was repossessed and after six short months of being in my own home I found myself homeless. Life was not at all the way I expected it to be and I found myself feeling isolated and alone. I had to send my children back to live with their father and it seemed that I had nothing and no one that I could turn to for support. I began to question my faith and the part of me that I thought was dead and buried began to emerge again. Crying myself to sleep became a daily activity and alcohol became my drink of choice. If I could have a couple glasses of wine and sleep from the time I got off of work until the next morning then maybe I wouldn't hurt so bad. Satan had me to believe that I wasn't worthy of God's Love, I was fat, I was undersirable, I was broke, my life up to this point hadn't amounted to anything and I was doomed to fail. I was so good at smiling on the outside and convincing everyone that I was fine when on the inside I was lost in all the pain. My whole life had fallen apart right before my eyes and although I made several attempts to find my way back to Christ and restore my relationship with him, it never seemed to last very long before I was right back in my painful pit.

In October of that year I was reacquainted with my now husband. We had our first date in October and married the following April. I gathered all my things, quit my job and moved from Michigan to Tennessee without a second thought. I thought a fresh start was exactly what I needed to get back on track. Being in Tennessee with no family, no friends, no church family, no church home, no job, no children and married to someone I really didn't know very well only increased the pain, loneliness and isolation that I was already feeling inside. I felt as if I were in a desert all alone! I longed just to feel God's presence but I was so lost in all the pain that it felt as if he wasn't even there. In my mind even God had deserted me. The pain in my heart was so great that I reached the point of wanting to take my life again. "If I could just jump off this bridge, everything will be alright" is what I told myself.

As I stood outside in the sun one day enjoying the view of the hills in front of me, I began to cry and ask God to please fill me with His spirit. I prayed God please take away this pain and emptiness and God whispered that He had never left me alone. All the time I had been living without regard to Him, I was so lost in my pain that I had lost who I was, I had not been walking in my calling or looking to Him to supply my needs yet HE WAS STILL RIGHT THERE! The whole time I had been living on His Grace and His Mercy and I didn't even realize it. It was because of Him that I didn't jump off of that bridge. It was because of Him that I survived depression not once, not twice, but three times. Satan's plan was to destroy me and keep me off of the path God had set for me. God's Love, His Grace and His Mercy that helped me to break through the pain, and lay aside those heavy weights so that I could be what He called me to be.

I had to stand before God broken, open and vulnerable. Acknowledging that all that I needed was in Him. No man, no marriage, no new state or new start could make me whole! I had to shed the hurt, anger, insecurities, self doubt, depression, loneliness, unforgiveness, and resentment and allow God to heal me in His own way, in His own time, through His word and my relationship with him. It was through fasting and prayer that I was able to shed the old me and become a new creature. Once God began to heal me it was only then that I could look back and see how satan had clouded my mind, and clouded my judgement and caused me to lose sight of the path that God had laid out for me.

To my sisters who are hurting; sometimes that pain is so great and the reasons for that pain are so real, but our God is a healer!! He doesn't just heal sickness and disease but he will heal your broken heart. Psalms 147:3 says "He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds". It doesn't matter how great the pain is or what you've done that makes you believe you deserve that pain! God is standing there with His arms out stretched waiting to pick you up, restore you and place you back on the path He has set out for you! Remember there is nothing that you can do to stop Him from Loving you and there is nothing you can do to deserve His Love. Just give Him your whole heart! Don't get lost in the pain, let faith and fasting, prayer and praise be your weapons against the enemy's attack. Be encouraged my sisters I am praying with and for you daily!

What is Love?

What is Love?

The Love that God requires from us is defined in 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

--Boy is it ever hard to get this one perfect every time, Unless of course you have a perfect relationship where nothing ever goes wrong. What I have found is that we cannot do this of our own human abilities. It takes the ABSOLUTE POWER OF GOD!

Who can hurt you worse than someone you deeply love, cater to and share your bed with. Our flesh says if you hurt me I should and will hurt you back. And because I'm hurt it hinders my ability to open up to you, serve you, submit to you, or give you the love that God has commanded me to give.  As women we are so much more emotional than men and satan uses our emotions many times to blind us and keep us from hitting the mark.

Love has NOTHING to do with the way we feel! And for those that think it does I challenge you to dig deeper into the Word. Our emotions and feelings are based on what's happening! If you and your husband are still in the honeymoon phase and you're still feeling bubbles and butterflies and life is good then you'd probably say " You're SO IN LOVE". But what happens when your Love is tested, the two of you are at odds, and you can't agree on much of anything, money is low, and stress levels are high?  What happens when he cheats on you, or lies to you or does things to hurt you emotionally, physically, or mentally? What happens when he makes you feel oppressed, suppressed and depressed? What happens when the good doesn't out way the bad? How should love respond? How much should Love take?  For as long as I can remember when ever I am hurt by someone I love my first defense is to shut down. I don't want to talk, I'm going to protect my heart at all cost so being open and vulnerable is out, all laughter, acts of love and affection cease.

But there comes a point in your life when you have to take a look at yourself and do what I like to call a growth chart. In other words just because I've always done it doesn't mean I should continue to do it especially if it does not help a single thing and it is contrary to the Word of God. Jesus hung, bled and died on that cross. He was beaten with a whip that had nails in it, he was given vinegar to drink, they pierced his hands and feet and placed a crown of thorns on his head for sins that he didn't even commit ALL OUT OF LOVE FOR US! Can any one of us say that our Love has endured that much? Should we have to endure that? How much of ourselves should we sacrifice because we Love some one?

It's easy to say I love you but when it comes time to act it out that is the true test! 1 John 3:18 says My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth. As it is written in 1 Corinthians 4 God's standard for true Love is high! And just like forgiving those that have hurt us we can not Love the way he told us to without his Power! It just can't be done. When my husband and I first married he really wasnt as sensitive to my feelings as I would have liked. He's a very manly man and he has a suck it up and take it kind of attitude. My feelings were always getting hurt and I couldn't understand how he would say some of things he said or respond to my hurt the way he did. Here I am in a new state, away from my family, my friends and my children and I was lonelier than I have probably ever been in all my life! My flesh said don't walk,  but run back to Michigan, but God's word said Love endures. How would I ever know God's power to change the very fabric of a human being had I been ruled by my flesh. Through prayer and fasting I watched God change my husband right before my very eyes! Through enduring Love and obedience to God my faith was taken to a whole new level, and isn't that the objective? We GROW from faith to FAITH!

This is why we cannot allow our emotions no matter how deep and authentic to rule us! We must reach the point where we recognize satan for exactly who he is and what he does. As long as we are blinded by our emotions we cannot Love as God commanded or demonstrated. Share your love stories with me. Lets encourage each other and win the battle against satan.

Have you forgiven him yet?

Many of us grew up believing that Prince Charming would come and sweep us off of our feet and we would live HAPPILY EVER AFTER.... and then reality sets in! After the honey moon is over we realize that marriage is work. It's a daily, conscious decision to remain committed to someone no matter what. Women have such a hard role to play because even when our husbands fail, and we disagree with the decisions they have made we still have to be supportive and encouraging and not bash him or beat him over the head. But what happens when that failed decision or poor judgement call deeply and negatively effects your entire household. What happens if you tried to express to him that it wasn't a good idea to begin with or perhaps he went behind your back and secretly did something that caused your family great pain. And now that the consequences of his actions are upon the family you still have to smile, be supportive, protect his ego and pick up the pieces. All the while inside you're angry, disappointed and hurt!

Do you do what my friends and I call stacking? Where you stack up everything he has ever done to hurt you and hold on to it? Or do you forgive and move on?  I can honestly say that I do NOT get this one right every single time. Some things cut so deeply and are much more difficult to get over than others. But I reach a point when I have to FIRST, go back to my vow and honor it. I didn't just make a vow to my husband but I made a vow to God and before God. And the longer I hold on to whatever it is that is hurting me I give it more and more time to grow roots in my heart, and those kind of roots will choke out the love that is trying to grow and flourish. SECONDLY, I have to remind myself that I am in no way perfect (Read Psalm 51:1-19) yet God loves me still. And not only does he love me but he forgave me all those years ago when he placed his son on the cross to die for my sins. And THIRD, I stop and think, satan is seeking any opportunity possible to come between us. If he can make my husband out to be my enemy in my mind then our marriage is destroyed. Now I don't know about you but I have enough enemies without adding my husband to the list. So l have to ask-- have you forgiven him yet? Perhaps this prayer will help soften your heart....

Father I come acknowledging what your word has told me to do. You said that I must forgive in order to receive forgiveness from you. God I ask that you heal my broken heart, remove the events from my mind and focus my attention solely on you. You know and understand my hurt, help me through the process of forgiving and letting go. I lay my burdens at your feet and I cast all my cares upon you. Help me to not allow satan to use this to come between my husband and I. Touch my husband and help him to seek you everything that he does concerning us. Bind us together in your love and help us to be living testimonies of your power in Jesus name I pray Amen.

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FIGHTING satan WITH THE WORD!

As woman of God we are often overwhelmed with being a wife, being a mother, some of you work full time and we also have a plethora of religious duties that we are obligated to complete. Often times every ones needs are placed ahead of our own. When do we stop and deal with our own issues. Some of us are burdened with so many things; low self esteem, unforgiveness, bitterness, resentment, anger, out of control emotions, heart break, loneliness, confusion, depression, insecurities, lack of sexual desire, self hate, jealousy and many other things. Satan uses these things to stunt our growth and prevent us from realizing just how much God truly loves us and just how powerful we are when we walk in the authority that God has given us.
I struggle daily with depression. Satan knows that if he can get me to slip back into depression he will keep me from being all that God has called me to be. And because satan is so wise I never lean to my own understanding but I fight him with the word of God! I ask myself a few questions.  1.) What is the lie that satan is trying to get me to believe today? 2.) what is the truth of the matter? If satan is trying to get me to believe that no one loves me or that I am unloveable then I ask, 3.) What does God say? God says in Psalm 100:5 (New Living Translation) For the LORD is good. His unfailing love continues forever, and his faithfulness continues to each generation. St. John 3:16 (King James Version) For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believe in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. And the final question 4.) Will I believe satan's lies or God's word?
The next most powerful weapon I use to fight satan is prayer! I begin to pray Father in the name of Jesus please remind me today just how important I am to you and just how much you truly love me even though I do not feel loved right now. Help me to know without a doubt that I am just as important in your kingdom as any of my other brothers and sisters in Christ, and your love for me will forever be faithful and true regardless to my flaws, insecurities, short comings or current situation. I thank you right now father for wrapping your loving arms around me and being the lifter of my head. Replace my sadness with joy for you said in your word that "the joy of The Lord is our strength" and without strength I am unable to fight the deceiver we know as satan. Comfort my heart in the name of Jesus, Amen!
Once I have prayed I begin to give God the praise because that is where the joy comes from. When you are feeling down you'll be surprised at how lifting your voice in song, clapping your hands or praising through dance will lift your spirit and cause satan to flee. Perhaps you are struggling with depression or some other burden, share with us how you fight to stay lifted. Or perhaps you are struggling and need advice on how to make it through, please share your issue so that we can be an encouragement to you!

My Journey

Growing up a preachers kid I was always told and I believed that I would marry a preacher, that I would be a missionary, and that their was a great calling on my life. Married at 18 with two kids by age 20 it wasn't quite what I had imagined. I struggled to see how God could use me because my life was so off track and I had wasted so much time. I found myself struggling with depression and fighting to stay alive. But at that time I just figured I was emotional and missing my family back home. With two children to care for, a home, a husband and trying to live my life in a way that pleased God I put my hurt, disappointment, insecurities, self-doubt all on the back burner so that I could be everything to everybody. I wanted to be very sure that I was the best wife, mother, and Christian woman there was all the while on the inside I was falling apart. After my (then) husbands time in the military was complete and we moved back home I just new that things were going to turn around for me. I went back to school full time, worked full time and took care of my family! Working in the church to the best of my ability and doing what I believed God had called me to do. Moving back home proved to be one disappointment after the other. My (then) husband and two children and I lived with my parents in a two bedroom apartment for 6 years. The embarrassment, the shame, and the guilt ate away at me. How could I have such a promising future at 17 years old and end up this way. Why wasn't my husband making better decisions for our family? What was I doing wrong as a Christian to live such a disappointing life. The news of my third pregnancy rocked me to my core. After trying unsuccessfully to get my tubes tied and being on birth control the thought of having another baby sent me into one of the deepest holes I've ever been in. And to top it off I was fired from my job at the hospital because I couldn't fulfill my duties do to my pregnancy. The depression set in once again. And the attack of the enemy was so great. How is it that I'm a child of God and I ended up here. God doesn't love me, I'm unloveable. And how will he ever forgive me? Needless to say one disappointment after the other I was diagnosed clinically depressed for the first time. I remember lying in my bed sleeping for days just so that I wouldn't have to face life. After 15 years of marriage, three children, infedility, and a repeatedly broken heart I found myself divorced. My car was repossessed, I was homeless for a short period of time and I was broke. I thought sureley there was no hope for me at all! God didn't love me or he would never allow me to suffer this way. After several months of standing before God broken, open and vulnerable and seeking him with my whole heart I began to realize that even in all my mess, my sin, my depression, my flaws, my RELIGIOUS WORKS, God NEVER LEFT ME! Even in times when I felt completely alone and abandoned he was there! Even when I had a me, myself and I attitude and I wasn't thinking about him he was right there. My steps were ordered and he knew exactly what I was going to do before I was ever created in my mothers womb. I was a broken mess and sometimes I still am but God had me to GROW thorough so that I could witness to some one else who may be going through. I just want this blog to be a blessing to women every where. Let's talk, let's share, let's uplift and encourage that wife, that mother, that sister that is struggling to keep her head above water. As wives we have so many burdens to carry around yet we are expected to keep it ALL together. Let this blog be a place of release and relief.  Please join me and invite a friend. Share your stories, ask questions or post a prayer request. I look forward to chatting with each of you!
Love always,
Charity